if you're using me, do it slowly

Things normal people like but I don't like

2009-07-10T04:53:48Z

Ice cream
chips and salsa
hot chocolate

meeeeow

2009-06-26T06:21:00Z

"I've got a perfect body, but sometimes I forget. I've got a perfect body, cos my eyelashes catch my sweat.. YES THEY DO!" rs
I just want to sit and smell the rain. But not the rain when its mixed with city. That is gross smelly rain.
I am still looking to make major changes. I really wanna quit smoking (still), but I'm afraid of it. And I'm afraid I will gain lots of weight. :( If paris can do it so can i!!!! haha
I want to be really attracted to. Both ways. I want to want to do wherever, whenever. Unlikely places. Want to have fun times and I am sad about it. I can't let go though because I am selfish and would like to keep most of it for myself... and I will miss.
I am also sad about moving to my dads. Actually there are pros and cons. Ugh. I don't know what to do... too many periods in this blog. Maybe there just aren't enough periods in my real life

brightest_witch @ 2009-06-21T13:06:00

2009-06-21T19:07:50Z

it's not fair to say we wasted time
in my view we just used it all up

brightest_witch @ 2009-05-26T00:57:00

2009-05-26T06:59:41Z

i need to make some serious changes.
i hate being myself, always have.

brightest_witch @ 2009-03-19T13:44:00

2009-03-19T19:52:27Z

Let me first say that YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT.
You can't get money out of an ATM via credit card.
She didn't even lose weight. You don't lose weight from heroin, she wasn't on coke.
You can't fix anyone unless they want to be fixed no matter how hard you try.
I don't have "ignorant eyes," I obviously knew what was going on.
What the fuck does "leaving for days at a time" mean? She didn't even live with us.
My parents didn't neglect me, I'm not the one who lives in a trailer.
At least my dad has money and is actually one of my best friends and likes me enough to give me some. Like your dad is fuckin cool, he shot your dog in the back of the head because he was too cheap to give it a proper euthanization.
Exactly- if it was such a big deal why didn't you do anything about it? You were "scared" you dumb bitch.
And I'm pretty sure you also "sat by and watched a friend struggle with a serious problem," that being Brittni and her anorexia which she now has irreversible osteoporosis. Good lookin out. Maybe a person Brittni considered a friend (ie, you) led her to her addiction because she considered you fat and disgusting and didn't want to look like you so she starved herself half to death. Nice.
So because you didn't have anything better to write your English 101 paper on you had to write it about my life because yours is too goddman boring? You should be thanking me for getting an A on your poorly written sack of shit paper.

trying to..

2009-01-19T06:49:44Z

quit smoking
eat more vegan/vegetarian food
try to avoid parabens and petrochemicals in beauty products
cook more
wake up earlier
& actually try in school

also to remain a positive patty

hi

2009-01-14T22:00:51Z

edward cullen is a fictional character.

robert pattinson is NOT actually a vampire that is using the name rob p as a pseudonym to hide his true identity. and he most likely does not want to be your boyfriend.

get over it.

bright young thing

2008-10-04T03:55:33Z

i guess it was inevitable for me to become a smoker. my grandfather on my mom's side, my grandmother on my dad's side (and probably my grandfather on my dad's side as well - whose roots are unknown and his death was most likely a suicide). i grew up around secondhand smoke from both of my parents, and my sister probably had her first cigarette around age 12. it's funny, i'd always been so against it. i'd beg and plead for my parents to quit and i'd make them pay me a quarter everytime they lit one up. i used to cough when i walked by someone smoking, all obnoxious-like.

now my ashtray's overflowing.

i kinda wish i never started because i hawk up loogies all the time. i hope i don't get all gross and yellow-toothed and have to have an esophagus hole. /pointlessness.

brightest_witch @ 2008-08-16T23:03:00

2008-08-17T05:03:54Z

I wanna be happy.

new episodes of the twilight zone every sunday

2008-08-03T20:21:20Z

I do realize that a bright pink cast provokes curiosity and in an attempt to make conversation one might ask what happened. Quite frankly, after 4 weeks I'm a bit tired of saying the words "I fell off my bike," but am too lazy and lack the creative juices to think of anything better to tell people. The majority of people who ask me what happend are complete strangers, and often times they ask me if it was "like a bike? or a motorcycle?". Honestly, do I look like a girl who would ride a damn motorcycle much less own one? No, is the answer you're looking for. And if I did, in fact, fall off of my MOTORCYCLE I would probably say, "I fell off my motorcycle," as opposed to "bike". The word "bike" would probably be more acceptable if I was a 250 pound man wearing a completely leather outfit and a bandana and had mutton chops. And also I think if I fell off my motorcycle I would have sustained a worse injury than a broken wrist, unless I was simply resting on my bike and toppled over. I also understand that falling off a bike is an uncommon and somewhat comedic way to break your wrist when you are past the age of five, but really; it's not neccessary to break into a sidesplitting laugh at the thought of a total stranger's crippling injury.

/endrant. Good lord.

times is hard.

2008-07-23T02:35:14Z

LALALALALALA

Tomorrow I get to watch this:

HBTM

2008-07-08T21:51:08Z

all eyes on the calendar;
another year i claim of total indifference
to here the days pile up
with decisions to be made,
i'm sure all of them were wrong

WANTED:

2008-06-26T18:08:26Z

A. a boy
B. a boy who is not afraid of me.
C. someone who is an asshole only a small percentage of the time
D. someone who will bring me flowers.
E. a boy with a nice beard
F. someone who isn't a pussy and actually likes to have sex. hahahahhhahah
G. a boy who is happy to waste time with me in paris speaking english

... to be continued

i have dreams..

2008-06-24T13:56:14Z

.. of winning $5,000 gift cards to target and gluing in extensions in 5 minutes. if only dreams were real. i mean, wait. i hate dreams. either they are too good to be true or too bad that you think they are true or too good that you think they are true and then you get all mixed up.
i'm awake way too earlyyyy
i punched my gato in the face last night.
he is cute
( :
i wana be rich

brightest_witch @ 2008-03-30T12:16:00

2008-03-30T18:17:00Z

where were you born?

this beautiful city

what's your favourite tv show?

i know

how many hours since your last shower?

what's your ringtone?

where was your last vacation?

name something you dislike:

favourite day of the week?

what's the weather like right now?

ahaha i typed in "hot" and my favorite person ever came up. yes:)

/updated

brightest_witch @ 2008-03-28T21:49:00

2008-03-29T03:51:53Z

i kinof really miss having a boyfriend. why is it that 29 out of 30 days of the month i am a boy-free zone, and then 1 day i am flooded with potential lovers that i may or may not want? right? like, what the fuck?

i'm sick of using food as a coping mechanism. i'm sick of being ugly. im sick of being fat. i kindof really miss being 98 lbs and thinking that was fat.

i'm sick of being second best.

god damnit.

brightest_witch @ 2006-09-24T19:19:00

2006-09-25T01:19:53Z

TO BE STRONG IS TO LET GO.

brightest_witch @ 2006-09-24T14:56:00

2006-09-24T20:57:51Z

JEALOUSY.
such an evil thing.

Nobody wins when you're full of envy.

I just want him back.
I want her to go away.

we're still out at ten in the evening

2006-06-19T17:51:11Z

here i am
watching clouds from
your bedroom window
as we're laying here
it's so much fun
to be in love
'cause i'm IN LOVE
with you.

don't know why i'm still afraid
IF YOU WEREN'T REAL I WOULD MAKE YOU UP

I think I've found my better half.
I swear I've found my better half.

YOUR HAND iN MiNE.

i can't take my eyes off of you.

'cause i'm yours to keep
(ifyouwantto)

brightest_witch @ 2006-06-02T17:35:00

2006-06-02T23:37:42Z

I am so incredibly bored. This is summer for you. Nothing to do. Especially when nowhere wants to hire you. Why?!! WHY!! Why? And why?

Oh well. At least I've got a running internet. *knocks on wood* It will shut off in about a minute because I said that and then I will be left with nothing but a cheap creamsicle and no friends.

Why do all of my friends have to be out of town? Why?!!!

I'm bored.

brightest_witch @ 2006-05-29T19:47:00

2006-05-30T01:45:49Z

ALL IS FULL OF LOVE
kinda-ish.

it would be, if boys didn't suck balls.

quite literally.

kthxbye.